All has been very quiet here on my blog, I have been just way way to otherwise occupied in the last couple of months. In February this year our lives changed forever. I have a medical condition called PCOS which makes many things difficult, one of which is pregnancy. In October 2003, Jason and I got married and after three years of unsuccessful not getting pregnant we sought medical intervention. After several discussions with various doctors we were refereed to the NZ leading obstetrician in Auckland.
We started a series of treatments which introduced many different hormones to kick start my system. These treatments cost us $500 per month and involved many different drugs, scans and monitoring of all sorts. I lost track of the amount of blood tests I had, some weeks I had to have a test every couple of days. But month after month our hope in having a child was shattered as the nurse would ring us to tell us “the treatment this month has been unsuccessful”. We had nearly two years of treatments and each one unsuccessful.
During this time I mentally nearly lost the plot, I watched my friends around me becoming pregnant, having their families with ease. There was baby talk around me all the time and I found myself resenting people as they had families. It broke my heart and spirit.
After some time the medical intervention had taken it’s toll and I found life and our situation unfair. I felt like I was being punished for something and it started to take it’s toll on our marriage. There was a point where I got so upset I told Jason to leave me and find someone who could give him the family he deserved, another time I begged Jason to take me to the mental institution and lock me up. Thankful Jason being who he is just loved and supported me through this horrible time.
After all these treatments I resolved to never having a family. It was easier to say we can’t have children than to have hope month after month that we would have a family. God had told me I would be a mum, but I had to wait. We went through the process of adoption in NZ and got placed into the pool, two years and nothing. We fostered a couple of kids and as the years went on God’s promise to me became a distant memory. I threw myself into being busy all the time. I found myself doing lots of youth work and putting all I could into young ones.
But God had another idea .. another plan for us which he was preparing us for. On the 8th Feb this year, our lives changed forever, with Micah coming into our lives and I am just so thankful that God took his time and looking back I can see his hand on our lives molding us and getting us ready for Micah.
I share this with you all (and it’s only a drop in the ocean), to show the love, grace and promises that God has had over our lives. We had to wait nine and a half years and in the last couple of months I have had a crash course into parenting.
As the end of the second term holidays comes has arrived I am more determined than ever to become more organised. Working full time and having a family is full on and to keep your marbles and the sanity / safety of your family, organisation is the only way. How do some of the mums out there do it ? First stop for me is to work on a household food budget and menu planning. So I am off to work on some ideas.
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Courgettes or Zucchini are growing madly in my garden. I harvested this beauty on the weekend and realised tonight that I had not yet done anything with it!
Currently I am on a vegetarian diet and not having anything for lunch tomorrow I wondered what I could do with this without turning it into a pie! Turning to Edmonds, Courgettes Provencal (page 159) was the only recipe.
In less than 5 minutes Courgettes Provencal was made and it smells divine. I had to omit the onion as I am allergic to it but this little dish is full of flavour. With a sprinkle of cheese this will make the perfect lunch tomorrow.
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How many cookbooks do you own? I currently have 47 cookbooks and don’t cook enough from them! I am inspired by Robyn and her blog The Edmonds Challenge. She has been cooking her way through the Edmonds cookbook since March 2010 and her blog is a wonderful read. Edmonds is a New Zealand essential must have for the kitchen and a large part of New Zealand history.
Armed with my Edmonds and three bananas in need to be used, I went straight to the trusted Banana Loaf (page 26). Overlooking it’s lack of beauty, this is a great recipe. Looking forward to morning tea tomorrow!
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The garlic is dry, so tonight I cleaned up the first 10 cloves
The chickens are getting used to their new feeder, they have taken to it really well but still have their training wheels on.
Peas are still growing, we just harvested 200 grams of them tonight - super sweet flavour.
And a new book, while I don’t agree with some of the ingredients used in the book they can be adapted. I have not yet made anything within 15 minutes but let me tell you … 15 minutes to make a meal like that has got to be a dangerous sport! I have made parts of meals from the various pages all are very yummy. To say I am over the tomato bolognese sauce is an understatement and Jamie’s recipe for capsicum sauce is divine!
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It has been a long time since I last posted! We have moved house and have had to start the garden from scratch. Luckily I had a lot of our veggies in pots so they were relatively easy to move. Now we have a very small back yard (3 x 8 mtrs) but so far I have rosemary, oregano, thyme, peas, olive tree, guava tree, zucchini, berlotti beans, red kidney beans, green beans, spring onion, beetroot, cauliflower, cabbage, sunflowers, corn, purple beans, carrot, spinach, strawberries, cucumber, tomatoes, potatoes, pumpkin, silver beet, pak choi, lettuce, micro greens and two chickens!!!!!!! All in my tiny back yard!!!!
Today I harvested 23 bulbs of garlic grown this year in pots.
I am just a little chuffed with myself as everything I have growing I have grown from seed! Diggers has become a favourite place where I spent my birthday a couple of weeks back. It’s a constant source of inspiration.
What’s growing in your garden?
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Just saw this on river cottage face book page ….. Little to say my insides turned!!!!
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I have been so un organised and completely neglecting my garden, so much so it is now starting to let me know how un loved it is feeling!!! The passion fruit leaves some have gone yellow, the peas look like they need a hug and seedlings are desperately trying to push their way up be kissed by the little amount of sunshine we have had. Last weekend I gave everything a good feed and after 24 hours I could see the difference in the plants as started to perk up.
While surfing on line I came across these wonderful cue cards of what to plant when for the cold temp areas. They are just to good not to share !
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